Living in the Shadow of Death

On May 12, 1990, our 4th Anniversary, we received the news that Darrell, my husband, had colon cancer. So the journey began…….

That was going to be the opening line to the book I had planned on writing someday about my first introduction to the world of cancer. But I chose instead to live every minute of time I had with my husband to it’s fullest limit.

Sadly, on September 6, 2015, we finally lost the battle to cancer, twenty-five years later. During the last months of life flights, tests, surgeries and hospital stays, I stared out windows of the Huntsman Cancer Institute at Salt Lake City thinking that I should be journaling this journey once again.

I have decided to finally put into words the struggles, joys, lows and knowledge I gained from it all. It won’t be in the order of how it all happened, there will be humor and tears and I must warn you now, there will be talk of miracles.

Over all, I simply hope to share some of the incredible things that happened along the way. In letting you look into the trials and tribulations of living with cancer, I hope you get some treasured nugget of hope, encouragement or knowledge of what this disease is like.

Feel free to ask questions. Don’t be shy. I’m happy to share…..

7 thoughts on “Living in the Shadow of Death”

  1. I have great empathy for you and have first-hand knowledge (family and friends) of the heartache and discouragement that cancer brings to its patients and families. However, you were wise to find ways to deal with the disease while living your life to the fullest extent possible during that time. I’m sure your book will be an encouraging and hopeful story to those who are going through the heartache of this terrible disease right now.
    Love, Naomi

    1. Thank you so much Naomi. Such warm and encouraging words. I greatly appreciate it. To share our journeys only helps equip others to face them. Sorry to hear you to have had to support and deal with those struggling with cancer. It is so hard….

  2. Our hearts are with you, Robynn. I am so glad you have decided to write your story. I will certainly read it. BTW – we are having our first party tomorrow and will miss both you and Darrell so much. Hugs for you!

  3. Awww, thank you Naomi! It can be so painful, can it not? My heart goes out to you. Darrell and I handled a lot of it with humor. At times we thought maybe we were to silly and wasn’t taking it seriously enough, but laughter is good for the soul. I hope you are right and there can be encouragement and hope found from the journey. 🙂 Thank you for your wonderful words of kindness and support.

  4. I cared for many over the years with cancer and it still didn’t prepare for walking the journey with my dad – and yet – I wrote a book about the journey (in the To Edit) folder – because I found, during my journey, that for everything that was ‘stolen’ away, there was a gift returned – Not sure how to describe it adequately, but felt safe saying here – cuz you’ve walked the path and know it already, anyways! 🙂 I think it’s good for those who have walked the path to share their experiences – to me – my writer pals who wrote about such struggles were a much better support system during that time than those who were ‘in-person’ friends – 🙂 And I didn’t feel so very alone in the journey! 🙂

    1. Thank you Tamrahjo. You are so right! I have always found that for every loss, struggle or death, there is indeed a ‘gift’ returned. So many only focus on what is lost, not the gain. Sometimes you have to look ‘hard’ to find it. I would love to read your book. Edit it and let me know when you publish because like you, I have found much solace in the journey of others. Thank you for your warm, open comment. 🙂